April Fool #atozchallenge2024

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Theme: Soliloquies (Musings and

Intrusive Thoughts)

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April Fool

April Fool’s Day should be my day. If anyone needs to see an April Fool, he need not look further. I am the embodiment of it.

People think I’m tough. Some see me as feisty; many think I’m bossy. They’re all true. But what they don’t know is that I have to be tough, or feisty, even bossy. For THEM. Because I’m a FOOL.

I always fool myself that if I show that I care, I can make the lives of the people around me better. I fool myself that even without a thank-you, they can, at least, appreciate what I do for them. I fool myself that they all can see the wisdom behind my words and actions. Guess what? They don’t.

Instead, I annoy them and make them despise me. I push them away in the process. I hurt them and myself, and I harm our relationships. My sincere intentions get twisted to the point that no one can recognize them as what they are. I am simply that difficult person people don’t want around.

I always say that being a fool is worse than being ignorant. Ignorance, while not always excusable, can’t be helped sometimes. You can’t do or expect what you don’t know. But being a fool? That means knowing what’s right and doing things wrong anyway. Nevermind that you just effin’ care too much.

I am that person. I am that fool that needs to wake up. Somebody, please, shake me.