Hey, it’s JUNE, and yesterday was its first day. June in this country means school time, almost all-work and no-play for kids during weekdays (sorry, kids!).
My new family experienced three firsts yesterday. We have a transferee in third grade and it’s his first day in a new environment; hopefully, he survives the year well. We have a totally new student in kindergarten and it’s his first day ever in a school; he seems excited going to school so I’m crossing my fingers that he’ll stay that way. And there’s this new mother (Me) sending her kids to school for the first time; she’s about as anxious as…Well, I don’t know the perfect analogy to use, but yes, she’s anxious! And so is the father, actually!
I’ve always known that being a mother is tough, but this sure makes it all very real. You worry about a lot of things and your kids’ education is one of them. Are they ready? Can they cope properly? Will they learn their lessons like they ought to? How strict should I be about learning? Will I pass or fail as a mother?…Oops! That just came out. Where did that even come from???
Then again, that’s what it really boils down to, isn’t it? As parents, we are worried that we may not be performing well as their life-long guides. What if they grow up wrong? Or maybe we are just too demanding as parents? Ours are just kids yet and already, I am worried I am not bringing them up well. Everyday, I resolve to be better and yet I feel like I’m not even getting near better…
Oh, anxiety, go away, will you?!!!!
Anyway, I guess I should always remember the fact that we never stop learning life’s lessons until we grow old. As our kids learn their lessons in school, so must I learn from my mistakes as a parent. So today, let me promise to myself again that I will try to be better. It’s never wrong to strive to be better, is it?